Zoers got to pick out some lizards at the dentist this morning so of course my little gal picks 4 total - one for each member of her fam. She made sure to add that she got the green one for Max because they both have crazy hair. But the pink one is Mom. Because she’s chubby. 😳
NOT gonna lie, it stung for a split second. Until I didn’t let it. Until I changed the narrative in my head. Until I remembered her sparkling eyes were looking up at me and would register my reaction.
I may not have been as successful at the whole body image thing in my younger years but my greatest success at slaying that dragon will lie in my unwavering attempt to model healthy behaviors - physically, mentally and emotionally for both my kids.
While they will inevitably be bombarded with unhealthy images of what a woman *should* look/act/dress/behave like, they will also grow up watching their mama deadlift at the gym, they are right by my side as we conquer mountains literally and figuratively, they join me in meditation. They peak out the window when I’m leading a crazy monsoon yoga class and they are my sous chefs in the kitchen as we strive to make food choices that fuel our active lifestyles.
I used to think eating disorder recovery had to be the absence of any negative self talk - now I’m learning that for me it’s likely not gonna vanish entirely but that being able to look it straight in the face and kick it square in the balls feels pretty damn liberating.
The universe clearly knew I was going to be reminded of this today since this amazing quote showed up in my newsfeed this morning. I weigh the burden and the worry and the stress of raising good humans. But I also train for the load and I’m beyond grateful for the opportunity to showcase my strength. 👊🏼 #workinprogress #parenting #bodyimage #changethenarrative